THOUGHTS OF A SERIAL CHEATER

NEW CHICK

2006-08-03T23:03:00.000-07:00

HEY WHATS UP PEPS..THE LATESS CHICK...JST TOOK PLACE LAST NIGHT...CREDENTIALS...SHANICE..18 FROM MD..5'5 165 KINDA THICK CHICK...NOT MY NORMAL..BT HEY SHES A DICK SUCKER...SO I HAD TO TRY IT...AND DAMM..SHORTI CAN DEF SCK A DICK..MAD NASTY...SHE WAS LOVIN THE DICK JST THE WAY I IMAGINE...BEAT MY DICK ON HER TOUNG...WHILE SHE LOOKED ME IN THE EYES...DAMM OF CONTROL..I MET HER OFF A CHAT LINE OF ALL PLACES...SHE IS A MAD FREAK...SHE WANTED ME TO BITE HER CLIT...I MEAN BITE IT FOR REAL..SHE WAS A KISSER...SOFT LIPS AND ALL SHE COULD KISS..MAN IT WAS MADE LSTFUL..WONT SAY PASSIONATE WRG WORD..BUT LUSTFLL DEF...MAD IT FEELS GOOD NOT TO BE CHEATING ON ANYONE...I M FREE NO RING ON MY FINGET NO ONE TO REPORT TO..DONT FEEL LIKE I GOTTA LIE..TO NO ONE BOUT ANYTHING...I LV IT...SHANICE...YEAH I THINK ILL KEEP HER ON THE STABLE...SHE A YOUNGIN THO...MIND AINT REALLY FOCUSED CLAIMS SHE WANTS TO BE ...BT I AINT THE ONE ..I THINK SHE TURNED OFF BY THAT..IM UPFRONT WITH THESE CHICKS..THEY STILL WNAT THE DICK...ANYWAYS...BUT THEY CANT HANDLE IT...MEN AND WOMEN THINK DIFF ABOUT SEX...NO EMTIONAL ATTACHMENT....BUT IM NOTICING I DONT LIKE BEING THAT WAY...ID PREFER TO BE IN LOVE..WITH ONE WOMAN WITH ALL MY ATTENTION ON HER..BT I NEED TO MAKE MYSELF HAPPY AND FIND WHAT MAKE ME HAPPY FIRST...I REFSE TO GET CAUGHT UP WITH OTHER PEOPLES FEELINGS...AT THE MOMENT..I GOT WAY TO MUCH OTHETR SHITTO DEAL WITH...PERSONALY..GOT MY GAMEPLAN NEED TO STICK TO IT...

PERSPECTIVE

2006-07-26T23:18:00.000-07:00

The people who are running from bed to bed creating disasters for themselvesand everyone else don't seem to know what they are doing. They just don't get it. But why should they? There is a mythology about infidelity that shows up in the popular press and even in the mental health literature that is guaranteed to mislead people and make dangerous situations even worse. Some of these myths are:
1. Everybody is unfaithful; it is normal, expectable behavior. Mozart, in his comic opera Cosi Fan Tutti, insisted that women all do it, but a far more common belief is that men all do it: "Higgamous, hoggamous, woman's monogamous; hoggamous, higgamous, man is polygamous.' In Nora Ephron's movie, Heartburn, Meryl Streep's husband has left her for another woman. She turns to her father for solace, but he dismisses her complaint as the way of all male flesh: "If you want monogamy, marry a swan."
We don't know how many people are unfaithful; if people will lie to their own husband or wife, they surely aren't going to be honest with poll takers. We can guess that one-half of married men and one-third of married women have dropped their drawers away from home at least once. That's a lot of infidelity.
Still, most people are faithful most of the time. Without the expectation of fidelity, intimacy becomes awkward and marriage adversarial. People who expect their partner to betray them are likely to beat them to the draw, and to make both of them miserable in the meantime.
Most species of birds and animals in which the male serves some useful function other than sperm donation are inherently monogamous. Humans, like other nest builders, are monogamous by nature, but imperfectly so. We can be trained out of it, though even in polygamous and promiscuous cultures people show their true colors when they fall blindly and crazily in love. And we have an escape clause: nature mercifully permits us to survive our mates and mate again. But if we slip up and take a new mate while the old mate is still alive, it is likely to destroy the pair bonding with our previous mate and create great instinctual disorientation--which is part of the tragedy of infidelity.
2. Affairs are good for you; an affair may even revive a dull marriage. Back at the height of the sexual revolution, the Playboy philosophy and its Cosmopolitan counterpart urged infidelity as a way to keep men manly, women womanly, and marriage vital. Lately, in such books as Annette Lawson's Adultery and Dalma Heyn's The Erotic Silence of the American Wife, women have been encouraged to act out their sexual fantasies as a blow for equal rights.
It is true that if an affair is blatant enough and if all hell breaks loose, the crisis of infidelity can shake up the most petrified marriage, Of course, any crisis can serve the same detonation function, and burning the house down might be a safer, cheaper, and more readily forgivable attention-getter.
However utopian the theories, the reality is that infidelity, whether it is furtive or blatant, will blow hell out of a marriage. In 30 odd years of practice, I have encountered only a handful of established first marriages that ended in divorce without someone being unfaithful, often with the infidelity kept secret throughout the divorce process and even for years afterwards. Infidelity is the sine qua non of divorce.
3. People have affairs because they aren't in love with their marriage partner. People tell me this, and they even remember it this way. But on closer examination it routinely turns out that the marriage was fine before the affair happened, and the decision that they were not in love with their marriage partner was an effort to explain and justify the affair.
Being in love does not protect people from lust. Screwing around on your loved one is not a very loving thing to do, and it may be downright hostile. Every marriage is a thick stew of emotions ranging from lust to disgust, desperate love to homicidal rage. It would be idiotic to reduce such a wonderfully rich emotional diet to a question ("love me or love me not?") so simplistic that it is best asked of the petals of daisies. Nonetheless, people do ask themselves such questions, and they answer them.
Falling out of love is no reason to betray your mate. If people are experiencing a deficiency in their ability to love their partner, it is not clear how something so hateful as betraying him or her would restore it.
4. People have affairs because they are oversexed. Affairs are about secrets. The infidelity is not necessarily in the sex, but in the dishonesty.
Swingers have sex openly, without dishonesty and therefore without betrayal (though with a lot of scary bugs). More cautious infidels might have chaste but furtive lunches and secret telephone calls with ex-spouses or former affair partners--nothing to sate the sexual tension, but just enough to prevent a marital reconciliation or intimacy in the marriage.
Affairs generally involve sex, at least enough sex to create a secret that seals the conspiratorial alliance of the affair, and makes the relationship tense, dangerous, and thus exciting. Most affairs consist of a little bad sex and hours on the telephone. I once saw a case in which the couple had attempted sex once 30 years before and had limited the intimacy in their respective marriages while they maintained their sad, secret love with quiet lunches, pondering the crucial question of whether or not he had gotten it all the way in on that immortal autumn evening in 1958.
In general, monogamous couples have a lot more sex than the people who are screwing around.
5. Affairs are ultimately the fault of the cuckold. Patriarchal custom assumes that when a man screws around it must be because of his wife's aesthetic, sexual, or emotional deficiencies. She failed him in some way. And feminist theory has assured us that if a wife screws around it must be because men are such assholes. Many people believe that screwing around is a normal response to an imperfect marriage and is, by definition, the marriage partner's fault. Friends and relatives, bartenders, therapists, and hairdressers, often reveal their own gender prejudices and distrust of marriage, monogamy, intimacy, and honesty, when they encourage the infidel to put the blame on the cuckold rather than on him- or herself.
One trick for avoiding personal blame and responsibility is to blame the marriage itself (too early, too late, too soon after some event) or some unchangeable characteristic of the partner (too old, too tall, too ethnic, too smart, too experienced, too inexperienced). This is both a cop-out and a dead end.
One marriage partner can make the other miserable, but can't make the other unfaithful. (The cuckold is usually not even there when the affair is taking place.) Civilization and marriage require that people behave appropriately however they feel, and that they take full responsibility for their actions. "My wife drove me to it with her nagging"; "I can't help what I do because of what my father did to me"; "She came on to me and her skirt was very short"; "I must be a sex addict"; et cetera. Baloney! If people really can't control their sexual behavior, they should not be permitted to run around loose.
There is no point in holding the cuckold responsible for the infidel's sexual behavior unless the cuckold has total control over the sexual equipment that has run off the road. Only the driver is responsible.
6. It is best to pretend not to know. There are people who avoid unpleasantness and would rather watch the house burn down than bother anyone by yelling "Fire!" Silence fuels the affair, which can thrive only in secrecy. Adulterous marriages begin their repair only when the secret is out in the open, and the infidel does not need to hide any longer. Of course, it also helps to end the affair.
A corollary is the belief that infidels must deny their affairs interminably and do all that is possible to drive cuckolds to such disorientation that they will doubt their own sanity rather than doubt their partner's fidelity. In actuality, the continued lying and denial is usually the most unforgivable aspect of the infidelity.
One man was in the habit of jogging each evening, but his wife noticed that his running clothes had stopped stinking. Suspicious, she followed him to his secretary's apartment. She burst in and confronted her husband who was standing naked in the secretary's closet. She demanded: "What are you doing here?" He responded: "You do not see me here. You have gone crazy and are imagining this." She almost believed him, and remains to this day angrier about that than about the affair itself. Once an affair is known or even suspected, there is no safety in denial, but there is hope in admission.
I recently treated a woman whose physician husband divorced her 20 years ago after a few years of marriage, telling her that she had an odor that was making him sick, and he had developed an allergy to her. She felt so bad about herself she never remarried.
I suspected there was more to the story, and sent her back to ask him whether he had been unfaithful to her. He confessed that he had been, but had tried to shield her from hurt by convincing her that he had been faithful and true but that she was repulsive. She feels much worse about him now, but much better about herself. She now feels free to date.
7. After an affair, divorce is inevitable. Essentially all first-time divorces occur in the wake of an affair. With therapy though, most adulterous marriages can be saved, and may even be stronger and more intimate than they were before the crisis. I have rarely seen a cuckold go all the way through with a divorce after a first affair that is now over. Of course, each subsequent affair lowers the odds drastically.
It doesn't happen the way it does in the movies. The indignant cuckold does scream and yell and carry on and threaten all manner of awful things--which should not be surprising since his or her life has just been torn asunder. But he or she quickly calms down and begins the effort to salvage the marriage, to pull the errant infidel from the arms of the dreaded affaire.
When a divorce occurs, it is because the infidel can not escape the affair in time or cannot face going back into a marriage in which he or she is now known and understood and can no longer pose as the chaste virgin or white knight spotless and beyond criticism. A recent New Yorker cartoon showed a forlorn man at a bar complaining: "My wife understands me."
Appropriate guilt is always helpful, though it must come from inside rather than from a raging, nasty spouse; anger is a lousy seduction technique for anyone except terminal weirdos. Guilt is good for you. Shame, however, makes people run away and hide.
The prognosis after an affair is not grim, and those who have strayed have not lost all their value. The sadder but wiser infidel may be both more careful and more grateful in the future.

2006-07-26T22:52:00.000-07:00

well...alot of shit has been going on her lately kiya i fucking etton my nerves with her antics and attitude iknw she has fcked some dude by now..1 year later of us not being together..anyways to be expected...we arguing over shit..im tirfed i sent her a messga basically saying im gone and will be emotionally away from her..which is dangerous..i mean i ben holding back from letting my feelings go for a year...for her..i know yor probab saying what the fuck d..yobbene sexxin all these women...yeah but my heart and commitment potential is not with these females..i know my actions of chaeting were not acts of loving the ones i trully loved..i read this article on infedility i want to ptvon her casue this shit blew my mind..actualy there are 2 articles...i think the second one defines my recent past relation ship..great perspective...i wish kiya colud have read it i think it would help her in her next relatin ship..surely it will help me in mind...monique..and temple probably all could learn from it...im finding out now..these women werent so great after all thats why it didnt last...and i wasnt good to them..because i wasnt the right type man..at the time..to correct things..but if i was the man im becoming now..they prob wouldnt have fucked with me..guess birds of a same feather flock together...my standards of myself are changing...when it comes to a realtionship ill now how to take care of it and what to look for..case of what i now want..kep in mind...all the chicks im meetin now...are all single...not in a relationship not getting out of one,..thats new for me...im not fcking with married women..rebond women..or clinging women who been hurt ..which were all three of my baby momas...damm ive seen it all...this guy knows what to look for..for the next round..but before i do...i got 3 main goals...take of my kids..my career..and relationship w god..im not perfect..bt i do belive in a higher pwer...lots of vices...my sexual drive is my kryptonite...mix that with drinking or weed...and it spells disaster...add depression ..and yo really got a nice cocktail...of fcked up decision making...but know i know...damm sory it took me so long...but hey i got 33+ more years ..to correct that ..meanwhile...check this out

2006-07-26T22:40:00.000-07:00

toya's propb the coolest chick iv seen so far...seems like some of the yonger chicks donw ben threw some shit in they lives to the point like they just wnat someone to talk to cool..and fck..but without the strings attached ..the smart one prefer it that way...and damm im happy to oblige...so we talk and watch movies..fell aslep the next monr had to take my kids to camp..my son walks in on her in the morning..usualy well really i dont let females stay at my house when my kids are in town..just a rulle i got..but lately..toya been trying to stay over...ive got to pt a stop on that shit...its like they thinks they on vacation or some shit when they with me at the cribe..anyways..that morning...you know what happens next..damm for some reason..this chick pssy is phat to death..she got a nice body and all..nice firm tits..and small waist and ass..she not as thick as shetera...bt she def..got an atheletic body...i most fcks with females now that are 110-125...thats my limit...unless they come with special features....like for instance i met this female..another 18-19 year old..who says she loves to sck dick..butshe is '5'5 170 i thinks she sd i aint seen her in person yet..but she will be on here i ll keep you updated..

2006-07-26T22:26:00.000-07:00

you what up people..another hot summer night..damm ac went out again...this shit is really gettn on my nerves..and now my kids are hot as hell..and im strggling to find rent money..for this bull shit...im out of hear in 60days as soon as i get a new job....meanwhile...i let one my my shorties read my book this book...she was over here yersterday...bt before i get to her..yeah we fucked..i had my other shorty over here like 4 days ago...shetera..was high as a fcking kite..i mean high on some snorting shit..coke...didnt know she was into that shit...bt damm she was horny as hell..floatin around...she stripped for me on my patio..damm this girl got an ass on her..and lifted her blose for me and let me sck on her tits..damm she she is ripe and hell 26 no kids..tight body..all natural..no saggin no operation..needed..damm how to pull these chicks i dont know..well anyways she got freaky as hell. i wnated her tp sck my dick while she was on that shit..i heard females love that ..when they high on that shit..they jst go wild..i had this white girl suck my dick once like that i liked to cummm all down her throat..whooo..she was wild..i love that shit ...well we gets to fcking...but strange..she fell her ass to sleep..so i was like damm no she didnt high as hell she was she fell aslep on my floor..in the living room..so what do i do..fck it..i practially molested her while she was sleep fcked her and all..she didnt even know the next day i called her asked how she was doing..told her how fcking she was ..she didnt even remember...wow..she wasked if she cold come back over last night...but i didnt get her...case instead ..toya came over

2006-07-17T19:51:00.000-07:00

well hello all...im back missed of a few days ...damm i got some shit to tell you...welel from the last episode.....shits been hectic...i fcked the last chick whats her name...oh yea..shetera..26 nice ass i dicked her good..shes been calling me evr since..wanting ti come back over here bt i aint called her back gotta play it like that else chickes get it twisted.....meanwhile i called toya..yond chick 19..met her at a fcking wendys in march after moving to nc....ive been dicking her ever since..she kinda kool secy tho..young..sexy...we been out a few times...shes actually the realeast chick i ever been with bt i say that about all the yong ones, at first....i mean you tell them its jst a friends ship thing ..ya know a fuck thing,,,and hopefully they get the picure....she actually gets the picture....i mean she all about condoms...dont even slip and let me in with out it...i think thats becase she had her daddy die with aids...bt thats kool with me keeps me in chk...i nevr liked using condoms...probly why i got these kids now...shold have learned...anyways...we se them all the time...and now im sed to them..fn huh...after 5 kids now im used to them....dmma ass...anyway....she was over here..sat night..and dammm..we fcked for almst 2 hrs..and its gotten beter as time as went on...i know she has feleling for me but she wont let me in on them..i care about her a lil..bt no love...no infatuation..jst i like the pussy..ad she giving it ti me so im taking it...she kinda young..so i cant see nothing bt sex and goood times coming from this...meanhwile...like i sd when yo aint got no body you think life is over,...man i done met more hose in nc in 6 mths than i have in 1 year in va....and it can only get better...cause the chicks in nc..are more personable...and down..right receptable..to a nigga jst beeing a nigga...yall white folks may not understand this but...blacks folks know....sometines you jst gotta be you...and the ones in nc see that..and appreciate it...so its more relaxed...its not about what you have bt where your going....and im going to starting to the top...i got a interview tommrow with a company that will pay me 55k per year..i have to convince them im the one...and i will get this job..its my destiny..i see it ..o time for bitches now..not old ones are new ones...they come with money..so the money im going to go after....damm toya yor pussy is good..i fcked her and she came 4x i came once....thats how you do it....no ring on my finger..thank god..when i do find the once..no cheating no holding back..she going to get a true honest man...take it or leave it

2006-07-12T19:44:00.000-07:00

damm i ll come back to this i gotta smoke a blunt...like i sd im single...now after all my cheating episodes...got no ring on this finger now...ill nver let another chick bring me down in a relationship....infact im not getting into any relationships...im not saving nobody...im waiting to heal myself from these slf inflicted wounds.....its gonna take some time...but i will heal and when i do i will be a new man....i got 5 scares to proove the self inflicted pain....but like life..u can lye down and say oh woes me...or you can trn it around...but i dont like to dream about some nice phrases..or words...after all its jts word play...to make it all sound good....being myself ..i have learned that one its okay to be by yourself...two its definitly harder..bt way more satisfying to know when you achieved something by yourself...you did it....you made it happen or not happen and yo have no one to blame bt yourself...so who are you ? someone who blames every thing on others when you dont get it done...no i lok at myself..im the captain in this house...ilove having my children with me by myself..its a constannt reminder of the choices i made...and how i have to deal with them...childsupoort is a motherfcker..bt what am i gonna do..i mean ..its kida the cost of doing business when yo dont want to deal with the momma no more....and yo aint got to do the child rearing on a daily basis....but when they aintwith me...i have an empty whole...in my heart..i love my boys to death...and they really dont know how much i want them to overachieve...and excell and nevr make any mistakes i have made..if nothing else maybe one day this wills serve as a scroll so they will know what not to do.....and i wont hide my mistakes from them ..if i do i will be doing a serious injustice..to them...maybe if my punk ass father would have done it for me...i wouldnt have made so many so young....the beauty of it all is ..at least i know ...and when it yor time to know...yo better thank god..expecially if your yong like me 33...and have time to turn things around...the way i look at it...ive got another 33 years to make it better...

2006-07-12T19:22:00.000-07:00

now mind yo now..i worked at this bank of a job for 10years...not ever ever ever ever ever dating..anyone from work..just didnt and wasnt gonna happen..that how tight the game was...i mean if you a playa...you nevr show your cards to the people who see you everyday...well i got twisted by this female...who turned my world around...kiya...the finest woman to this day that ever been with...and the most together,..now she got issue too..ill get to that..bt for the most part she prob my closest to having everything i want...and i want alot...anyways...i met her in 2002 summer...now i was still married at the time..and met her as another potential into the game of things...didnt know i was gonna get gamed in the end...well we started seeing eachother...at the time she had a boyfriend...who i depise to this day..well at the the time her boyfriend was giving her shit...and my marraige was in turmoil...wify was stressed..coldnt keep a job ...im workingall the time..we got kids bills ..all kind of shit marraiges go thru...me i was so stressed didnt see straight...met kiya and thought she was my way out kinda some fresh air...from the stress..and in th beggining thats all it was we was straight fuckin...i knew she had a boyfriend...she knew i was married....but we didnt care the sex was killer..and th best we ever had...seemed like i was on cloud nine...and i didnt want to get off...commnication with wify was dwelding...so i leaned on someone else..and she was happily there to hold me up...meanwhile...didnt realize...im doing the same thing i had done in previous relationships...when time got rough and communication was lost...i sought others...the thing is am i really sabotaging the relationship by one..not speaking on the thing that bother me...and letting them ride..or am i so insecure..in myself that i dont want to be alone...i think its both...add to the fact rejextion if the other person doenst want to hear what i have to say...man i ve got to fix this else ill always jump to other people when being in one relationship.....

2006-07-12T19:05:00.000-07:00

see when i was college...i met moniqe like i sd earlier...well jst before we started to get serious meaning marriage serious she tells me that she her and her best friend had an experment...im like what kind of experiment...chemicals smoking what? she like nah me and tessa ..her best friend tp this day....had sex togther...first i was like what the fuck? cause at that time i anit nevr heard of or been with anyone that open..member i was kinda bored with the last 2..so i thoght hmmm this might turn out to be alright ...a bi sexual wife...although she sd it was just an experiemnt and she nevr thought about it again.,...yeah..not til 3 years later..after we got married the shit comes up again...but this time ...she dont want tessa...my brothday comes around one year..and she takes me on this blindfolded ride to a jucuzzi...spa...decked out with wine fruits and shit...im like alright wify is doing me right...mind yo now until this point i handt thought about being with other women...case i sd i was gonna be monogomous..being married...not unsal..everyman should vow to be that way...once married...well...my wify was like the hell with that..knock knock on the jucuzzi door in walks this asian...fine as hell tight azz body long hair..chick,,,and introduces herself...while me and the wify chilln in the tub she gets in ...and its on and crackn...from the one monas traio..or howver you spell it...cme after another..carmen, sharon, lisa, hell at one point we thought about ol tessa...but wofy sd she wasnt attracted to her...can yo believe it me and wify discuss the bitches we gonna fuck together..it got so bad after a while she was cool with me finding the women bringing thme back to the house ..as long as she knew everything about the women...she didnt want nothing going down with out her knowing and certaintly no romance ..relationship feeling..well thats lasted for about 2 years...we had a couple close ones...once had this young chic call the house trying to scream on me..cause i didnt fornt her no cash.,.after i fucked her and she scked my dick...wify was lik i told yo not to fuck with yong chicks...lol..kool as shit about it...girl called my home..left mesg yoyr hbby is cheating...wify laghed at the shit...nevr heard form that chick again....well 1 years flys by and we off and on with outside martial sex..shit..no i takes the game to my job...plenty of chicks there

no cardial rle nmber one..nevr shit where you lay...didnt heed..it would come back on me royally

2006-07-12T18:50:00.000-07:00

see i met her in college while i was fcking another chick name terri...damm this chick had some hge tits...but couldnt fck..worth a damm..and she was not freaky at all...guess i need some excitment..she did have her shit together tho..good woman..just not the woman for me..she was kinda bossy and nevr really went ot of her way for me..jst the min shit..hell i cant even remember her taking me to dinner..now that im writing this...anyways i met her too at college..she was my first real relatinship out of high school...before her i met tracy...goofy chick at the time i didnt have a girlfriend and my sister actally hooked us up...nevr again...anyways nevr really liked her..that why when i got to college..i dumped her and was free for a min...nevr had sex till i got to college...my first experience was a girl named tonya...damm alot of "t " name chicks ..lol..anyway..tonya was a madd freak..didnt know at the time was hittin it...she was screwing the whole..basketball team..damm that fucked me up...guess i shold have learned then that women are sneaky and the have secrets...look you dead in the face and tell they aint fcked no body..meanwhile jst got off some dick...wild part is men..we nevr know till someone tells you...or yo actually investigate the shit...thats the only way you will know ...cause women will go to the grave with secrets...i mean there are no real signs of the shit..people have told me contless times..look at this or that...but reality is if you ant been told by a second party or havent seen the shit for yourself...you will nevr know...anyways....your prob sensing a little change in the mood..yeah ill get to that..i minte..i got hurt back...but ill get to that...anyways..my first cheat was tracy...for terrie then after 3-4 years of dealing with her shit cheated with monique...after 10 years of her bull shit...cheated to kiya..then after 3 years of her bll shit..cheated to temple..the last 3 cheats...i had babies by these women...fnny thing is they all know eachother..damm thats triffling...i know...bt heres how it went down

2006-07-12T18:41:00.000-07:00

well hello all who might be reading this...today was a fcked up day on the life a serial cheater...lets see i woke p today....mad shit today...to do..get the kids off to camp...oh i had court today for a ticket i got in feb handt paid it...meanwhile..had my two litl boys with me while in court ..couldnt get anyone to help me..watch them while i was in court...typical...called my ex mom asked if someone else at her hose could watch her own grandson...sd not likely and didnt offer...called p one of my chicks...that i thought migt help...she nevr got back with me til about 2 hrs ago..i fcking cort at 2pm...women...when they need some shit ..best believe yoy better have your ass in gear...thats what they expect help them ot bt when a gy has some shit to get handled..you cant find bitches to do shit for you...leading me back to this scenario...i got my kids with me for the smmer all 4..one is still in va with his mom...propb wont see him for quite some time...see

i was married at one point...back in 96..to monique...cute shorti ( at the time)...
we got into some kinky shit tho...see when i met her didnt knw she was the freak she turned out

2006-07-11T20:21:00.000-07:00

why did i choose this name serial cheater? well becasei cant remember any relationship where i didnt cheat ..and over the years i just went from one relationship to the next...

out of high school...there was traci - cheated
college i met terri- cheated
then monique- cheated
the kiya...cheated

the fucked up part is i got 5 children to come out of the cheating...not cool

i think i cheated for attention reasons...and i was insecure..and depressed..and nevr realy satisfied..with who i ws with..i mean everyone one i dont think i 100% wanted them ...there was always something i found to say i didnt like about them...maybe im not accepting them because i havent excepted myself...i believe im not good enough ..

2006-07-11T20:09:00.000-07:00

first i like to kiss in between the legs..you see the ladies love the tounge action and i love it too...so what the hell...now i dont kiss every one case that shit aint cool..but normally yo can tell if the pussy smell right by how they dress...and what type panties they wear...all aldies with thongs..pussy smell is tight and right...got to..yo cant be wearing thongs with a smelly pussy...anyways.....i gets to kissing and she she holla she gota pee..so i tell her to go pee then i ll be right here waiting dick hard as a missle..i aint had sex in about 2weeks..so videos aint gonna put this dick down only some tight wet gooshy stuff....so she comes ot of the bathroom..trained to go...she sits down on my couch..and starts taking her jeans off..sitting there on the floor naked half way down...she waitin on me to get back to action so i do...throw the condom on...and get to smashing that ass...she came 2x...and i bust one on her ass...got up put clothes on ..and she left...damm...another one ...

how do i feel about unattached sex...?? how can i do it..with no feelings...well for one

i dont want to feel anything for these women...i stillhave feelings of love for another woman..who by the way doenst ove me anymore but i gess im still getting over her...shes moved on..maybe i should too...

2006-07-11T13:13:00.000-07:00

OKAY TIME TO CT TO THE CHASE...JST FINISHED WITH THIS FEMALE I MET WHILE SHE WALKING ON HER WAY TO WORK...NAME IS SHETERA 26 -- BLK FML DARK SKIN WITH SOME NICE AZZ TITS AND PHAT ASS..YOU KNOW WHEN THEY COME LIKE THAT I GOT TO HOLLA...NOW THIS IS NOT A CHEATING SITUATION BECASUE IM NOT WITH ANYONE AT THE MOMENT...REASON BEING CASUSE I GOT CAUGHT...IN 05 ...BT ILL GET TO THAT LATER...MEANWHILE SHETERA LET ME FICK HER 3X NOW TODAY MIDAY SHE CAME OVER ASK IF SHE COULD CHILL THAT BECASUE I TOLD HER I HAD SOME BLOW...YOU KNOW HOW CHICKS ARE...ANYWAYS...I HAD MY TWO SONS WITH ME I HAD TO LET THEM TAKE A NAP...WHILE I GET THIS AZZZ....DAMM THIS CHICK IS PHAT AZZ HELL SHE WONT LET ME TAKE A PIC OF HER BT ILL SEND ONE ANYWAY...NOT XRATED..SHE WONT LET ME ...ANYWAYS ..NOT MCH CONVERSATION TO IT..DIDNT TAKE MCH ACTUALY SHE WAS ON HER WAY TO WORK WHEN I MET HER GOT HER NUMBER..CALLED HER LIKE THE NEXT DAY ..SHIT SHE ASKED IF SHE COULD COME OVER I SD HELL YEAH...AND IT WAS BOOTY BOOTY BOOTY EVER SINCE...I DONT UNDERSTAND...SOME WOMEN ARE SO EASY....OR MAYBE THEY KNOW WHAT THEY WANT I GUESS..IM SURE YALL WAITING TO HEAR HOW THE PUSSY WAS....OKAY

2006-07-11T11:44:00.000-07:00

FIRST ABOUT ME...I WAS BORN IN HARLEM NYC..NEW YORK..A CITY BOY ..MY MOM AND DAD WAS NEVR MARRIED BT THEY HAD MY SISTER AND I....MY DAD LEFT ME...WHEN I WAS I THINK 6 ...CANT REALLY REMEMBER EVER HAVING HIM AROUND..UNTIL LATER IN LIFE HE SHOWS UP...BUT ILL GET TO THAT LATER...I REALLY DO THINK ALOT OF MY SEXUAL PROWNESS COMES FROM MY DAD...HIS PLAYA ASSSZZ

2006-07-11T11:21:00.000-07:00

THIS IS A STORY....NOT A FAIRY TALE...NOT FICTION ...ALL TRUE ABOUT A MAN WHO JUST COULDNT KEEP HIS DICK IN HIS PANTS...ALL ACCOUNTS OF EPISODES WILL BE A THOROUGH AS POSSIBLE AS REAL TIME EVENTS....YEAH REAL TIME...IV ALWAYS WANTED TO TELL SOMEONE ABOUT MY BEHAVIOR BUT I MEAN REALLY NO ONE REALLY UNDERSTANDS ME..IM A COMPLEX INDIVUAL..

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